The Incredible Journey

June 21, 2009

I am so amazed by what God is doing. This journey has changed me, from the inside out. I feel like there has been a transformation way deep in my heart. The Lord has poured more of His compassion in my heart than ever before.How many of you know that just as in the natural when something is poured into a container to the top, everything comes floating to the top. And when it overflows, the floaties come gushing out, the impurities come washing out. This is the best way to describe what has been been happening. It's been painful at times, but glorious to let go of the impurites.So this has most assuredly been a cleansing process. The result has been this deeper relationship with Him. I have come out of this cleansing season, different, lighter. The things I used to think were important aren't anymore. One of the most remarkable things is He is burning out the things that do not bring Him glory. I have let go of my idea of what I thought my life should be at this age.Life has become simpler, more focused. I don't think about all the what if's. And this incredible peace and confidence has taken over my life. The fear of what people think of me has been hacked off my life. This has been a lifelong battle, and now it's over. I had gained ground in this area over the years, but it has been a slow process. Now, it's gone and I attribute it to this Journey and Process I have been on.I mentioned a couple of days ago, I would talk about another friend on the journey. This friend of mine has become very near and dear to me, since I moved here. She is such an example of excellence and what a godly woman should be. And she is extremely sweet and humble. All she has ever wanted to be is a wife and a mother, which she does with grace and joy. Integrity is her nature and she is beautiful on the inside and the outside. Her name is Kynda, rhymes with Linda, and last summer as I began to accept this plan from the Lord, during a prayer time I decided to 'name' this little girl that I saw dancing in my dream. I named her 'Kynda Grace', and have been praying for her ever since. I would be proud if she grew up like her namesake.I remember having a conversation with Kynda, my friend, last summer, asking her what her name meant . She wasn't quite sure, I have since looked up the name and it's hard to find. 'Kenda' means cool, refreshing waters. I like that, because whenever I am with my friend, I come away feeling refreshed!Recently, like early last spring, I told my friend about our plans to adopt and that I would like to name our little girl Kynda after her. She was humbled, blessed and honored. I have a feeling they will be close, and I would be very happy if they were!More confirmations came throughout the summer and fall of 2008, which I will share in the next few notes.